‘Cause they say the best way out is through–“Ungodly Hour”–The Fray
good afternoon my dears! i cannot get over how wonderful you all are, i am so glad that you guys know just what to say to whip me back into shape :) i am so grateful for all of you.
i am in the process of packing up my room and preparing for my last final. and since i had absolutely no real obligations today i treated myself to 45 of hot power fusion love.
i’ve been thinking a lot about my denial, and i’ve come to a few realizations. the first being that it has been a while since i put myself in a challenging situation, so i have not had to make any anxiety provoking decisions. essentially i have kept myself in my easy bubble, which is a good way to trick myself that i am fine. but in thinking about it i am about to experience a lot of changes. i am going home where things are different and the food is different, i am going to have a hectic schedule and then i am moving in with three new girls january 1st. to me these are all big changes that are not easy to handle.
i also realized that it takes me like an hour to eat a meal. this isn’t an option when i am busy, and its not a realistic way to eat.
so once i get home my mom and i are going to figure out what’s next. but even sooner i have a nutritionist appointment tomorrow morning. and i have figured out what my new outlook is going to be: i am eating to get my period back. it is a problem that i haven’t had a period since march.
also i found out today that my free t4 levels are low, they told me this is common with eating disorders and by googling all i managed to find was that it has to do with hypothyroidism, anyone have any experience with free t4 levels?
ah here is my new love:
other than all that jazz i sold back my books today, and worked on using up all my meal points, but i still have 30 left to spend! so it looks like more clifs, lunas, gum, iced tea :) and a latte too. funny how i was convinced i was going to run out of meal points just a few weeks ago.
well it seems i should get back to packing, so much fun. but i am not complaining because I’M LEAVING TOMORROW :) anyone else way too excited for this week to end?
happy wednesday my dears!! &&
the oh so amazing shelley tagged me with this beautiful award :) thanks again girl!
7 random facts about moi:
- i used to be a gymnast & a cheerleader, but i am more flexible now than i ever was then (thank you yoga)
- my senior year i was general manager of my high school school store, the comet zone
- my dad calls me emily krackalin because when i was a baby i couldn’t pronounce katherine
- one of my favorite things to do is drive with the windows down, radio up, and just sing (especially party in the usa ha)
- i have no sense of direction what so ever
- i fall down quite often, usually while trying to walk up stairs
- my favorite movie when i was little was the jungle book :)